Step into the mesmerizing world of Billie Eilish as she peels back the layers of her life, fame, and creative process. From a somber Barbie-inspired soundtrack to the protective feelings she harbors for Olivia Rodrigo, Eilish's journey is a rollercoaster of emotions and raw authenticity. Join us as we explore the dark inspirations behind her music, the maternal instinct she feels towards rising star Rodrigo, and her candid revelations about gender identity and attraction.
#1. Barbie" Heart And The Lunar Happiness (Behind the Song)
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Billie Eilish opens up about the inspiration behind her soundtrack tune, sharing how the lyrics reflect her evolving relationship with fame. From the euphoria of 2019 to the struggles of the following year, Eilish's journey unfolds like a lunar exploration, oscillating between highs and lows.
The “What Was I Made For?” singer said the song’s lyrics were inspired when she changed her relationship with fame and how she’d been “basing all my happiness on all these things in the material world that you have no control over and that will inevitably change."
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"I felt like I was on the moon (in 2019). And I remember at the time being like, I'm finally happy. I'd never been happy before, and I just wanted to stay happy," Eilish told the outlet. "I got older and fell back into being a human and not being happy all the time — having good moments and having bad moments. Last year got really bad. And I just kept being like, 'God, I miss 2019 so much. When can my life feel like that again?' "
Billie revealed that singer-songwriter Kurt Cobain helped her understand the loneliness that comes with fame.
"I feel so much deep, deep, deep sorrow for him and his life and where it went. In (his suicide) letter he's like, 'I have everything in the world, and I absolutely hate it.' He was so ashamed that he wasn't enjoying it," Eilish said. "And I get why he was feeling that way. It's just not what you think it’s going to be."
#2. Protective Wings Over Olivia: Eilish's Maternal Instincts (Guardian Of The New Wave):
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Delve into Eilish's candid conversation with the Los Angeles Times, where she unveils her protective instincts towards Olivia Rodrigo. As Rodrigo soared to stardom, Eilish felt a maternal worry for the young artist, shaping the hauntingly beautiful song "Goldwing" as both a muse and a shield against the perils of fame.
The lyrics of the song describe a "gold-winged angel" who is about to be exploited. "Gonna claim you like a souvenir / Just to sell you in a year," she says.
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"Olivia was getting big, and she was just, like, this little dainty child," Eilish said. "I felt so nervous. I was worried about her. She came up in that acting world, and people are so weird. I don’t know — I just felt very protective over her. And I feel that way to everyone."
While "everyone's experiences are so individual," Eilish says she feels a deep kinship with young women in the spotlight.
"I just see myself in all these young girls. And it's the girls, man. Boys can handle themselves. They’re dudes — they don’t have to deal with it like we do," Eilish said. "I just want to hold everybody in a little glass box and never let anything touch them."
#3. Billie's Gender Odyssey: Navigating Attraction and Womanhood (Beyond the Empowerment Anthem)
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In a Variety interview, Eilish bares her soul about her complex relationship with women, addressing attraction, intimidation, and her struggle with traditional notions of womanhood
"I've never really felt like I could relate to girls very well," Eilish told the outlet. "I love them so much. I love them as people. I'm attracted to them as people. I'm attracted to them for real."
The "Lost Cause" singer, who has previously faced scrutiny for her sexuality, also alluded to her experience with same-sex attraction. Eilish, on the other hand, did not say whether she is queer.
"I have deep connections with women in my life, the friends in my life, the family in my life," Eilish said. "I’m physically attracted to them. But I’m also so intimidated by them and their beauty and their presence."
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Despite her empowering anthem, Eilish opens up about the disconnect she feels with her own femininity, adding a layer of vulnerability to her public persona.
"I’ve never felt like a woman, to be honest with you. I’ve never felt desirable. I’ve never felt feminine. I have to convince myself that I’m, like, a pretty girl," Eilish said. "I identify as ‘she/her’ and things like that, but I’ve never really felt like a girl.
Billie Eilish's revelations offer a rare glimpse into the soul of a young artist navigating the complexities of fame, relationships, and self-discovery. From protecting fellow artists to grappling with her own identity, Eilish's journey is a testament to the power of authenticity in an industry often shrouded in glamour. As the melodies of her hits continue to echo, Eilish invites us into her world—a world where vulnerability and strength coexist in harmony.